Scribblings….
I sat down, ready to start the day and my heart sank. Come on, I cajoled my heart, it won’t be that bad. We know, you and I, how to handle this. Put a smile on your face and it often ends up in place for the day! Come on we can do it!
Not this time said my heavy heart with a down trodden voice. I can’t do this today. I’d rather not anymore.
But what!? But why?!
I don’t want to pacify anymore people. I don’t want to be blamed for ruining this, that and the other. I am, very simply, tired. Tired to the very marrow of my soul.
Tomorrow is another day say I with a question attached.
Of course. My heart takes heart – tomorrow knows no bounds and miracles do happen.
musingsmine 
Why? Pacify? Why would you, who have always spread sunshine around, have a need to pacify? Who? For what? Blame? You? For what? You have little or no reason to take blame or feel guilty – of course you’re not perfect. Like all of us mortals you make mistakes. But blame? Guilt? No possible way! You have every possible justification for lifting your head in pride. You have carried unexpected and unearned burdens with incredible strength and stamina. Earning the respect and admiration of everyone who knows.You must “lift yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again” as the song goes. The road is rough, there will be other “Black Holes”. But do not pacify – do not accept undeserved blame – you of all people have no need for that! And you have done nothing to deserve it!! There will be more sunshine for you to spread around. Trust me, I know, I’m your Dad. I love you!
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